I realized that I am constantly panicking about life
life is good, but I feel it’s still not good enough.
but then again, when is it going to be good enough. At what point do I stop wanting more or wanting better? Maybe never?
I need a full time job, I need a decent job, I need a well paid job, I need a job that will get me a status. I panic about job searching.
I panic about going home. When can I go home, how long, how often,
I panic about my family
I panic about the things that I thought I am good at; is in fact, not good enough. Things like my photography, things like my design
Then I start panicking about not being able to be better.
Then I panic that I don’t have enough time.
To do all that I wanted and to have the time to become better.
And I panic about how much money I have and how much money we can save.
so much panicking. I panic when I will stop panicking